I am 30 years old. And I have never spent a Christmas away from my family.

Today at work they told us that no one could take vacation at Christmas time. Now, if I wanted to have a restriction like that on a job, I would prefer to be schlepping clothes at Macy’s where at least I would get a friggin’ wicked employee discount. I mean I only expect two things at a job:
1. Good pay
2. Ability to take time off when I want

So the whole budget crisis in CA has screwed with number 1. I live paycheck to paycheck hoping that the next one isn’t going to be minimum wage. And now they’ve gone and screwed up 2.

I realize that we have a deadline, a big scary one, coming up on January 9th… But if I keep getting screwed out of the only two things that I need in a job, I’m not giing to want to stay through to the deadline.

I can’t even tell you how upset I will be if I don’t go home for Christmas. My grandma is slowing down these days and you can never be sure when that last Christmas with her will roll around. I even had Winemonkey on board for the trip to PA. I hope I can manage something.

You should feel rejuvenated after a long weekend right? Not so much.

But hopefully tomorrow I will get to the gym and chill in the steam room and do a little working out. That would sure be nice.

That is how much Starbucks espresso I have had today. I even went to the gym after work… and I am still feeling it. I hope I crash in about 10 minutes.

I thought after graduate school I would be done feeling over worked. But that just totally isn’t the case. I think, and I hate to say this, that I am an over-achiever. And I totally don’t want to be. I want to come home and not think about papers and data. I want to work out, play video games and pet my cute little doggie. But there is always a shadow hanging over my days. A shadow of the historical data of corn crops in the US… a shadow of cows eating spent grains from ethanol plants… AHHHHHHHH!!!! More vodka. Less caffeine. Maybe that would do the trick?

I am actually stressed about work. It seems that I have many things to get done, but not enough time to do them. Additionally, I find that I work best from home where it is quieter and more relaxed. I feel that I get a better quality of work when I am at home. Unfortunately that doesn’t work so well around the office. I generally don’t ask because it seems that no one else does it.

Anyway. I like working from home. And maybe after to mad rush to make this deadline I will ask if I can work from home in Santa Rosa.